A few weeks ago I wrote a blog where I mentioned that a 23-year old intern had told me that the best years of her life were over. I thought this was ridiculous.
I mentioned the conversation to a co-worker/friend and she replied, "She's right!" I was stunned by her response, and was like, "Are you serious?!" She went on to explain that she felt that the days of hangin' out with friends regularly & spontaneously had ended. Now everyone has moved away, gotten married and/or started having kids. Now we're supposed to "settle down" into monotony. Things are now so different and it was sad.
I shared my opinion on how there's still so much that is going to happen in our lives, and if you think the best is over, then what the fuck are you gonna do for the next 60 years of your life?! Why live at all?
In the end we decided that we each had a valid point, and while our lives are definitely not over, they are very much different, and sometimes that is a depressing thought.
I have the occasional moment when I feel 21 again, like the days I play flip cup all night or stay out 'til the bars close. Those days are becoming few and far between though. Mostly my life has become centered around work.
Typical day for Jaime:
I wake up at 6 am.
I leave for work at 6:50 am.
I arrive at work at 7:55 am.
I work from 8-4 pm entering orders and monitoring patients.
I leave work at 4:05 am.
I arrive home from work at 5:10 am.
I eat a snack and go running or work out and finish around 6:15 pm.
I take a shower and fix myself up and finish that around 7:15 pm.
I now have free time until around 10 pm.
I go to sleep at 10 pm ('cause getting 8 hours of sleep is a necessity for me most days).
It's a never ending (dull & boring) cycle.
I'm not saying that my life sucks, 'cause it definitely does not. I'm just saying that it's very different from my old life. I'm trying to get used to it. Thankfully, I think the fear of getting stuck in a rut and having no social life will keep me from becoming a complete and total boring loser!
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Friday, May 30, 2008
Age
Yesterday, at work an intern was talking about how upset she is about turning 23. She then said that she feels like the best years of her life are over. WOW! I told her that was sad.
So, I got to thinking...
Despite the fact that I am going through a self-proclaimed "quarter life crisis," I do not think that my life is over. I'm just a little upset that my 20's are so close to being over and that there's so much that I still want to do, see, & experience. I also do not believe that the best years of my life are over. Imagine if they were?! What would I have to live for? I must say that the past (almost) 29 years of my life have been great, fun, adventurous, exciting, loving, interesting, sad, nerve wrecking, fabulous, etc, etc...... That being said, I know there's so much more to experience and I'm ready to do so.
I think when you're young your perception of age and what it means is skewed. A few years ago I found a journal thingy from when I was young. I wrote it when I was in 2nd grade. I wrote predictions that I would be married by the time I was 20 and have kids when I was 21. WOW! I didn't even finish pharmacy school 'til I was almost 26, and trust me if I had kids when I was 21 that would not be a good thing for any of us! Then, the other day, my mother mentioned that I always said I wanted to be married by the time I was 30. I told her that things don't always work out as we plan them....and that's not always a bad thing. I'm perfectly fine with not being married and not having children now. I'm sure if my 2nd grade self knew my almost 29 year-old self and had the same understanding, she would be okay with it too. My younger self never expected me to go on to college for 8 years, become a doctor, and begin a lucrative career either. (Ha, ha! Take that 9 year-old self!)
So, I guess the conclusion I should reach from all of this is that I shouldn't be concerned with age, and that age is only a number. In actuality I don't really believe that either. I personally think age is a good gauge of things. I'm far too logical of a person not to think that. I just think that people place too much importance on the age number.
In conclusion, despite turning 29 in 10 days, I wouldn't want to go back in time to any other place in my life if it was even possible. I'm sure 29 will be wonderful...30 on the other hand....well, we'll cross that bridge when we come to it.
So, I got to thinking...
Despite the fact that I am going through a self-proclaimed "quarter life crisis," I do not think that my life is over. I'm just a little upset that my 20's are so close to being over and that there's so much that I still want to do, see, & experience. I also do not believe that the best years of my life are over. Imagine if they were?! What would I have to live for? I must say that the past (almost) 29 years of my life have been great, fun, adventurous, exciting, loving, interesting, sad, nerve wrecking, fabulous, etc, etc...... That being said, I know there's so much more to experience and I'm ready to do so.
I think when you're young your perception of age and what it means is skewed. A few years ago I found a journal thingy from when I was young. I wrote it when I was in 2nd grade. I wrote predictions that I would be married by the time I was 20 and have kids when I was 21. WOW! I didn't even finish pharmacy school 'til I was almost 26, and trust me if I had kids when I was 21 that would not be a good thing for any of us! Then, the other day, my mother mentioned that I always said I wanted to be married by the time I was 30. I told her that things don't always work out as we plan them....and that's not always a bad thing. I'm perfectly fine with not being married and not having children now. I'm sure if my 2nd grade self knew my almost 29 year-old self and had the same understanding, she would be okay with it too. My younger self never expected me to go on to college for 8 years, become a doctor, and begin a lucrative career either. (Ha, ha! Take that 9 year-old self!)
So, I guess the conclusion I should reach from all of this is that I shouldn't be concerned with age, and that age is only a number. In actuality I don't really believe that either. I personally think age is a good gauge of things. I'm far too logical of a person not to think that. I just think that people place too much importance on the age number.
In conclusion, despite turning 29 in 10 days, I wouldn't want to go back in time to any other place in my life if it was even possible. I'm sure 29 will be wonderful...30 on the other hand....well, we'll cross that bridge when we come to it.
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